Day 3: A Memory

Memory is a part of everyone's journey. Memory could be bad also could be good. If that's bad memories and still staying in your mind or your heart, is the sign of trauma. If that's good memories, it's gonna makes you miss the moment or makes you happy.

"Hey, Fir? Do you have a good memories?,".

I said, yes I have. That's memory makes me miss the moment and feel loved. I just feel I'am having fun. But I realized now that I make memories to remember. My part good memories are being happy with myself. That's precious for me. I through the hardest thing to find myself. And then I found who is me. 

I'm happy when I can see my best friends laugh and tell some funny things. I'm happy when I sleepover with my besties, do ladies thing, and deep conversation. I love travelling alone and embrace myself.

"Hey, Fir! Do you have a bad memories?,".

Yes, I have. I've been through many traumatic tragedy. I still remember till know. Sometimes I cry alone and throw myself to the water if remember that moment. And then I realized I have depression, post traumatic stress disorder, and inner child issue. 

Did I ever find help from other? Yes, I did. i asked my exes. It end up broke my heart. I believe and motivated them. But they cheated on me, manipulated me, and makes me as jokes. 

That's all my memories.